learning a simple + natural life

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

With it basically being the fall and headed into a new season, I find myself writing goals and looking forward often..Or at least trying to!. In that thread, I've been focusing on ways to build myself and my boys up - in more ways than one! This involves find "our tribe" here locally, and online. And as you can see with the title of this blog (which I'm actually changing into something else soon) I am very much focused on natural remedies and how to live a natural and simple life.

This floods into every aspect - gentle parenting, raising disciples for Christ, "crunchy" mamas, learning intentionally at home and in community, and finding ways to fuel our passions. Much of this has stemmed from what I've outlined before in starting a natural produce farm here on our property- which the time is not yet, long story, but it will come. The more I learn about real food and natural wellness the more excited I get about it. Just like I explained with Travis' birth story (which i have yet to extensively share- long story), the more I learned about childbirth and pregnancy, the more excited I was to actually give birth, and to truly want to turn around and do it all over again - I just loved it that much! (This will be a post on its own lol!)

Yet I've also found myself feeling stuck and frozen often still, with all of life that's happening lately, and the fear associated with it. I've waited to take action on practically everything because of the fear of messing up or the fear of what others think or say. The fear of not panning out as I imagine it, or the fear of no one ever reading a word. Basing every decision or indecision on the fear of these things, or what others may or may not do because of what has happened in the past, is not a way to live. I've mentioned before about dreams about the future and books and writing and a career as a birth worker once the boys are older or working in the field of natural wellness in marketing and being an entrepreneur and professional writer in that. And when I get to thinking, it hits me that I'm letting myself hold myself back because of those fears.

When instead, it should prompt me to PRAY, then accordingly take action to be the best version of me in this crazy season. My faith has been hit hard lately, and I'm ready to get un-stuck. This season has entailed a lot of internal and external struggle, differing opinions, postpartum depression and anxiety, and just a lack of words. They haven't come as they used to, as they should. And this is a huge red flag - when the words don't come for me and I'm not writing, something is wrong. But now as I've worked through a lot of the personal narratives that were holding me back and found strength in spite of a less than ideal road to get here, I'm choosing to be the best version of me in my reality. Do you see that word? Its a choice.

Sometimes I find myself wishing this burden and haze I've been in lately was a physical ailment because it would be more easily understood than something emotional and mental. But alas, that is not the case here. And I'm honestly not sure I would want it to be so.... blatantly obvious..... because in the struggle... that means you are known and seen and affirmed and are led to face the hills and valleys in community. And while that's great in theory, while you are in the trenches, it's a terrifying thought. The fear of rejection and being fully known are wolves in sheeps clothing, as you present it as a protection for your fragile state when in reality it keeps you from being who you need to be within and perhaps even in spite of your reality. And truly sitting in this epiphany and realizing this makes me want to grow into who God created me to be, and to stop being put in a corner and feeling incapable by circumstance. Because I don't want to live like that - an inauthentic life isnt worth it.

With that said, first, that was a long winded explanation! Second, here I am. Back to writing. What about? a natural and simple life - many things that fall into this, too. Pretty soon I'll be launching a new site and will close this one. I'll be re-blogging some old posts which are relevant, and will be taking a whole new intentional direction in this endeavor, becoming serious in my writing and as an author. Yes, you read that right, author. More to come soon on that!

There are quite a few opportunities that have come my way, some in the past week, some happened some time ago that Ive been sitting on, afraid to take action (read above). But now is the time to get back at it.

And wait a minute - I didn't get too far into what a simple and natural life means to me. But don't fret---- When I launch my new site, that will be the first post!

But are you curious....? Check out this banner I made for the blog:

See you on the new site!

natural & simple: a personal narrative

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Natural and simple: two words with big implications. The past few years have been a big learning curve. From having two babies, to losing more, to moving into a tiny home, losing and looking for jobs, starting businesses, taking time away, seeing our life with fresh eyes, writing toward a goal and talking to a publisher, looking for business opportunities in any place - teaching online, dog sitting, farmers markets, construction...

Beside the point. That's the new direction of this site - at least at this point in production. What do the words natural and simple truly look like when applied to a life in progress? That's what I'll discuss here - plus an opportunity that comes along with that notion.

It's an idea I've thought on and learned of greatly over the past few years especially. I think it was cemented more while I was pregnant with Travis throughout 2017 - with all the chaos that has been our life lately, it felt like the one thing I could control. Not pregnancy itself, but how I viewed everything surrounding pregnancy, birth, nutrition, listening to our bodies and what they are telling us. This all started with looking for a provider. It wasn't a nightmare, per se, but it was...strenuous. Not so much because I didn't "click" with anyone, but because I felt limited by other peoples' noted or perceived expectations and limitations on me, financial cost and endless insurance issues, as well as a lifelong medical condition that automatically deems me "high risk" despite it not having any effect in each of my experienced pregnancies and labors.

In fact... Travis who was born in January, well, I had him completely by myself under the watchful eye of my husband on the phone with 911, squatted facing backward in the front passenger seat of our car, parked in a Brookshire's parking lot. He wasn't going to wait any longer and was crowning - there is no stopping and limiting baby! I'll get to the full birth story later - but at least that gives an idea that, despite the medical terminology around how my various providers wanted to go about my birth and limit it (monitoring, testing, minimal movement, etc, because of policy, liability, and also my own condition) that ultimately had no effect. And in retrospect, his birth was the very definition of natural and simple, except, you know, for the car part! Maybe low-key is the way to put it... Ha! More on the details of his birth and how that ties into this new direction to come... Plus what that inspired for me, thinking on the future...

With this in mind, what does natural and simple mean to me? Essentially: back to the basics, the essentials. Keeping things as close to nature as God designed, and keeping things low-key, quiet, straight-forward. I've been very taken by a Minimalist Mom group I'm in, and if you read previous posts from last year, well, I sure was going the minimalist way with my writing: tiny living, steps to the farm, downsizing from 1600 to 288 square feet, purging material posessions, steps to live simple in your own life - such as "know your yes," and more. I really do want to get back into a lot of these notions, and I also want to move forward with looking back to nature as a guide in what we do, using the resources readily available which God gave us for healing and learning through life. This goes into red raspberry leaf capsules for labor, magnesium lotion for sleep, zinc oxide for sunscreen, shea butter for skincare, vitamin c for immune support, probiotics and prebiotics for gut health (your "second brain").... and so much more. I want to get into so much of this that I've learned over the past year and a half especially, and I'll share about a company I partner with which holds all of these solutions in one place.

One stop for all - that's simple. Plant based solutions - that's natural. This is going to be all about educating and learning about many areas, finding natural, simple solutions...Plus the lessons I've learned along the way, with personal narratives riddled throughout.

And are you wondering about the book I've hinted about, or how to go about a publisher and the process? Well- this will be a big part of it. I've written sparingly on it for the past few months because of the chaos and emotional and mental turmoil I've been through, but.... it's coming. I've only written maybe a quarter of it so far, and I need to regroup, and find what else I feel led to write on it, but it's coming along.

So things are kind of crazy for us: starting businesses, dreaming of future businesses, multipule interviews for new opportunities, writing for the business, the blog, the group, keeping up a house, raising two boys, plus everything else thrown at you in life - the unmet expectations, especially - well, yeah, I'm a mess. But that's okay. One day at a time.

Here we go...!

back to this space: an introduction

Thursday, July 12, 2018

I started blogging right before our first anniversary and honestly.... I never thought I'd stop. Yet we are coming up on seven years and I've been fairly absent from this blog for the past few of those years. Long story short... life is unpredictable, and never what we expect or imagine. Plus I've been trying to conjure up a way to redirect this blog towards something else, and I'm still figuring that out!
If you follow me on Instagram though, I've shared some of what's happened throughout the time I've been absent by pictures. I also write in a group on Facebook about natural solutions and the company I partner with. More on that soon - what I'm learning and sharing there will be a huge part of this site!
But for the most part, we've been figuring out life with a toddler and five month old, along with everything else that comes along with it. And honestly, I'm not even sure what to write currently. This post certainly isn't going the way I imagined it, as I thought about mustering up enough (courage? mental energy? creative capacity?) to get the blog started back up again...
Right now, there is SO much going on I don't even know where to start. But here's some bullet points of the current projects and dreams I'm working on personally, because even with the hiatus and silence, not all is lost, and there's always more to the story than you can see:
  • I wrote Travis' birth story the other month, so that will be shared here soon, along with general life updates and encouragement on a natural & fearless birth (yes, you read that right, and yes, he was born in January! Something else-a dream- I have to share on this topic too!)

  • I'm writing a book and have been in touch with a publisher - super encouraging, yet a process! More details to come on this front soon- the writing, topic, and process!

  • Currently writing about nontoxic skincare (read: key ingredients) in that group I mentioned -a lot more has been and will be covered - an entire post will be dedicated to that soon. Check this out in the meantime!

  • I've been journaling a lot more which is always helpful, for memory, clarity, among other things

  • The clarity I've been missing the past few years is starting to come back - Ill get into some of the obstacles soon which have been rooted in postnatal depletion, hormonal imbalance and nutritional deficiencies and gut health,  postpartum depression, inner voices and hurdles and life culminating in an unexpected way, as well as outside influences. By writing about this I hope to shed some light and encourage others - as well as to give myself peace of mind on the process and growth happening. This will likely turn in to a series of it's own on this blog

  • I've been looking into a few difference income streams at home with the boys (for a looooong time) and I think I'm right on the cusp of figuring out what will work best - I currently have an interview and some more writing to do on this front, plus some more investigating, so while the process has been severely slow it's encouraging to me to finally be able to feel like I can breathe again, and am even capable of...well, anything. (And this is where grace comes in - I've been so unbearably hard on myself I didn't even realize it with the chaos and well, real life is never what we picture or imagine, is it?)
So here we go.. on to our next chapter! Next I'll share more about that group, current opportunities, and the direction I see this blog headed, (natural, simple, etc) keeping these bullet points in mind. Writing there about what I've learned has kept me accountable and kept me going- because I know now, that if I'm not writing, then something's wrong. That has been very clear to me now as I look back on the past few years. Just keeping on writing!

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